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Love doesn't truly exist. [Aug. 28th, 2004|02:23 am]
we give love a bad name


I wish you would make it easier for me. Dump me, break my heart once more. It would be doing me a great favor. My heart is breaking everyday as it is. I don't trust you, I don't trust any of your girlfriend's. Hell, I don't even trust half your guy friends. And I can't stand him. He's a huge prick who is only going to get you in trouble. I admit that he's good for laughs. But that's all. You're going to wind up in jail because of him. Hell, you do a good enough job of that on your own without him. I miss my best friend. He has a girlfriend now, and I can't help but wish he would kiss me and let me know it was all a joke. And it would feel awesome to hit him in anger, but know that it's okay. But she's the sweetest thing. And they are absolutely meant for each other. School's starting after the weekend, and I plan on never seeing you again. And I can't deal with that. I have needs. And seeing my boyfriend at LEAST twice a week is a necessity. You don't even plan on moving out of your parent's house for another couple years and the only way I see us working in our predicament is getting a place together. And I mean that. And I'm not going to waste my time being in a relationship or living with someone if I don't think we're getting married. We've been together two years already. A couple more years I could see. BUt not 5 or 10. I want to live my life, and if you seriously want to marry me, what's the difference if it's now or 10 years from now? We're done being kids. I'm not saying we should jump into this right now, becuase I know your a mama's boy and won't, but I'm not waiting for you. If I don't see that you want a future with me, I'm absolutely out of here. And I already know how you are. You didn't want to feel married once, so it's no different now. AGe doesn't matter to me anymore. I don't care how young we are. I'm not dating someone for 7 or 12 years from them to be ready. So fuck you. I guess that's it, huh? Because you don't want a commitment, not now, not two years from now, not 10 years. Had you got the girl you wanted though, it might be different. Well for once, maybe I'll start looking for what I think suits me. A life.

From: (Anonymous)
2005-04-18 05:10 pm (UTC)
love truely does exist nikki
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[User Picture]From: hornymonkey
2005-04-18 05:55 pm (UTC)
Of course it does, but uncomplicated love? Different story.
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