||[Aug. 16th, 2004|02:24 am]
we give love a bad name
|||||Silence...well the humming of the air conditioner||]|
My heart is completely broken. And I am sad. And I cried (a lot). But I guess I knew this would happen. He is younger then me and I have an established life and career hundreds of miles away. I guess I knew this would have happened. ::sigh::
I just feel really stupid. To go all they way up there - to never see him again. My heart hurts and what make me even more sad is that he said his not into "dating" or "relationship". I just don't know. All I know is I'll never have him the way that I truely want him but I do know that I don't want to loose him as a friend. He is just a really awesome and rad guy, man. DAMN!! I just miss him.
Well I guess onto the next fish in the sea. Wonder what I'll catch this time. ::sigh:: :( ;(