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me [Nov. 17th, 2010|11:10 pm]
we give love a bad name
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(no subject) [Sep. 20th, 2006|08:22 pm]
we give love a bad name

[mood |crankyPMS]

I miss this place.

How are you guys?
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(no subject) [Dec. 21st, 2005|01:14 pm]
we give love a bad name

love smells absolutely awful right now.

im miserable.

crying all day.

when does it ever make sense?

i dont know what to do with myself.

everything is fragmented.

everything has disintegrated.
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(no subject) [May. 1st, 2005|07:34 pm]
we give love a bad name

I understand now.
It's apparent that you don't care.
Stop trying to win this bet.
It's over.
Your fault.
You gave up and now it's over.
I can't keep waiting.
You love to keep me waiting.
I don't understand.
I get it.
You love to keep me waiting.
Get the fuck out of my face.
Why have you stopped chasing?
It's apparent that you don't care.
Get the fuck out of my face.
The race is done.
I've won by default but don't want the metal.
All bets are off.
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(no subject) [Apr. 24th, 2005|02:00 pm]
we give love a bad name

Love doesn't smell bad.
Being Hungry,
having a sore body,
all that type of physical stuff, that smells bad.

Love... well love is just rancid.
I'm waiting for someone to actually change my opinion of that.
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(no subject) [Mar. 15th, 2005|10:27 am]
we give love a bad name

i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i fucking hate you
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(no subject) [Sep. 17th, 2004|11:39 pm]
we give love a bad name

I am in two communities. This one, and dear you. And for some of them, I've found that my posts belong in both communities.

Dear Journal:
Thank you so much. YOu are the only place I have to vent anymore. I have no one. I really think I literally would go crazy without you.

Dear you:
You really are making me miserable. I'm so sick of you fucking up. And I've asked A LOT of people if I really am just being a bitch. And they all basically said the same thing. You could put a little more thought into having a bit more common sense. In fact a lot more common sense. I questioned people because I began to wonder, if I was being a complete bitch because it seemed like it was becoming way too frequent. You don't call even once until 11:30 at night. (And a wake up phone call half hour late was established to not count) You show up half hour-45 minutes late for us hanging out when we only have an hour together, or you make plans with your friends both nights when you're parents go away, instead of taking into consideration that maybe you and your girlfriend could spend the night together. And these are just examples of the stupid petty mistakes that your constantly making. And I really don't think I can or want to take part of this relationship much longer. Your really fucking making me angry. You really don't know how to have a girlfriend after two years with me? You don't know what ticks me off? Get a clue. Grow up. Get your head out of your ass. Girls don't ake it lightly when you cheat on them, and then cover for yourself with technicalities. Or when you show up late, or don't call, or say something stupid, or... so on and so forth. You're not ready for a relationship. I should have realized that a year ago. Fuck you.
Yours Truly,
Your absolutely fucking miserable and tired girlfriend.
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Love doesn't truly exist. [Aug. 28th, 2004|02:23 am]
we give love a bad name

I wish you would make it easier for me. Dump me, break my heart once more. It would be doing me a great favor. My heart is breaking everyday as it is. I don't trust you, I don't trust any of your girlfriend's. Hell, I don't even trust half your guy friends. And I can't stand him. He's a huge prick who is only going to get you in trouble. I admit that he's good for laughs. But that's all. You're going to wind up in jail because of him. Hell, you do a good enough job of that on your own without him. I miss my best friend. He has a girlfriend now, and I can't help but wish he would kiss me and let me know it was all a joke. And it would feel awesome to hit him in anger, but know that it's okay. But she's the sweetest thing. And they are absolutely meant for each other. School's starting after the weekend, and I plan on never seeing you again. And I can't deal with that. I have needs. And seeing my boyfriend at LEAST twice a week is a necessity. You don't even plan on moving out of your parent's house for another couple years and the only way I see us working in our predicament is getting a place together. And I mean that. And I'm not going to waste my time being in a relationship or living with someone if I don't think we're getting married. We've been together two years already. A couple more years I could see. BUt not 5 or 10. I want to live my life, and if you seriously want to marry me, what's the difference if it's now or 10 years from now? We're done being kids. I'm not saying we should jump into this right now, becuase I know your a mama's boy and won't, but I'm not waiting for you. If I don't see that you want a future with me, I'm absolutely out of here. And I already know how you are. You didn't want to feel married once, so it's no different now. AGe doesn't matter to me anymore. I don't care how young we are. I'm not dating someone for 7 or 12 years from them to be ready. So fuck you. I guess that's it, huh? Because you don't want a commitment, not now, not two years from now, not 10 years. Had you got the girl you wanted though, it might be different. Well for once, maybe I'll start looking for what I think suits me. A life.
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(no subject) [Aug. 19th, 2004|01:21 pm]
we give love a bad name

[mood |blahblah]

I'm glad there's a community like this, with other people that feel the same way I do. I was so in love with my last boyfriend and things were so wonderful and dreamlike for quite awhile and there was no hint that anything was wrong and then everything just crumbled and it left me so crushed. It's really hard to move on. I've got great friends, but I don't think they really understand what I went thru, all of them have these perfect longterm relationships (10 mon. to 3+yrs) and they just tell me to forget about him and move on, but that's a hell of a lot easier said than done and I mean it's easy for them to say that while they're all in love and problem free, but it's not that easy for me. I've been so lonely and just last week I ended up finding a guy that I'm friends w/benefits with now. He's not a boyfriend, but he's very nice and honest and hanging out with him has made me feel a little better, but my friends seem to look down on me for it. It's like they think I'm a slut or something just cuz he isn't my boyfriend and that hurts. I dunno, I just needed to vent a little. If anyone has any advice or anything, it'd be much appreciated. Thanks.
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(no subject) [Aug. 16th, 2004|02:24 am]
we give love a bad name

[mood |crushedcrushed]
[music |Silence...well the humming of the air conditioner]

My heart is completely broken. And I am sad. And I cried (a lot). But I guess I knew this would happen. He is younger then me and I have an established life and career hundreds of miles away. I guess I knew this would have happened. ::sigh::

I just feel really stupid. To go all they way up there - to never see him again. My heart hurts and what make me even more sad is that he said his not into "dating" or "relationship". I just don't know. All I know is I'll never have him the way that I truely want him but I do know that I don't want to loose him as a friend. He is just a really awesome and rad guy, man. DAMN!! I just miss him.

Well I guess onto the next fish in the sea. Wonder what I'll catch this time. ::sigh:: :( ;(
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